Monday, Dec. 5 – Chris Holloman

5 Dec

Week 2: Peace
Today’s Scripture:
Malachi 3:1-4
John 3:22-30

Feeling good about a big decision in my life.  Sitting down at the end of a long day, with no work to be done. Bringing stillness by maintaining a quiet environment. In the past, these would be examples of how I would define peace. Through reflecting, it seems as though my definition of peace was situational, established through my control and wasn’t really internal.  “Peace” was only known, formally, as an external calming of my life that left (supposed) peaceful and still experiences. Since I began to teach, God changed my view of peace.  The problems with this system in my life as a teacher left me asking: What do I do to “find” peace when everything around me is still crazy?

If you’ve ever talked with me about being a teacher, you know that it is a struggle for me. It is something that I’ve felt a lot of adversity over and prayed a lot about. My attempts to become a “successful” teacher have made me feel that I need a peaceful classroom.  The cycle continued to make me believe that a peaceful group of students would bring me peace on the inside. Needless to say, through the orders of “please sit down”, “please quiet down”, and “please listen to me”, I didn’t really experience much peace in my classroom.  I became colder and at times, yelled louder, but soon realized that I couldn’t demand and control peace. I can order and direct my students all I want, but even a quiet/well-managed classroom will not bring my classroom, or me, peace.

In my teaching, I have slowly come to the realization that a peace will not necessarily come from my students but must be brought to my students. Bringing them peace, and not demanding it, is how I can achieve it. It is true that external circumstances can bring peace, but they will never satisfy our desire for true peace.  A lasting peace can only come through Christ, internally. This is something that I knew, but my new life experiences challenged me to live out. Without this new mentality, many of my external situations can and will be chaotic.

My view of peace has changed significantly since I started teaching.  Oddly enough, how I react with internal peace has changed how my students react and generally does lead to a more peaceful classroom.  This peace of Christ that transcends my understanding is something that I cannot control superficially. It is something that I have had to rely on Christ to provide and now it is something that I must discipline myself to carry. Peace has become something that God has to bring in me, and then can be lived out through me.

May the peace of Christ be with you, as He is bringing it more and more to me everyday. 

-CH            

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2 Responses to “Monday, Dec. 5 – Chris Holloman”

  1. Daniel Thomas December 5, 2011 at 10:52 am #

    I can relate 100% to this post. Sometimes I feel so defeated being in the halls at school because of all the darkness. Even the kids who seem to have it all together have to battle materialism and superficiality that plagues our culture. Disrespect of adults, ill treatment of females by male students, female students who are just as violent and crass as male students, extreme apathy, and a seeming pervading lack of any moral compass whatsoever are evident on a constant basis in the hallways of our schools.

    Depending of controlling these types of situations and trying to “fix” the problems in different cultures are certainly empty ways to seek and find peace. Thank you, Chris, for illustrating in words how necessary it is to depend on the peace that comes from being in Christ.

  2. Annie Freeman December 6, 2011 at 3:06 pm #

    AMEN! Again I will say, Amen

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